Doc's Place

© 2008, Michel Grover. All rights reserved.
Chapter 13 | Part 1
Tuesday, October 9, 1984

Find a bird's nest that has fallen from a tree so I bite open the shells and lick up the contents. After drinking my fill of water, I mark the territory around the den and crawl back inside to sleep with the others.

Wake up feeling good. Try to move, which hurts which in turn pisses me off. Grow even angrier as I struggle into the bathroom with Soji's help. By the time we begin my therapy, I'm ready to chew nails and shit bullets.

Attack my therapy with controlled fury. After Soji and I shower together so he can hold me up, we eat with Lloyd. Back to bed where I fall asleep for two solid hours and awake refreshed.

A pair of crutches is beside my bed. I roll to a sitting position, pull myself up using one of the crutches and, Colt M1911A1 in hand, make my way to the bathroom. Soji has placed one aluminum frame around the toilet and another in the shower. It's a struggle but I can use the toilet by myself. Wash up as I lean on a crutch and when I'm ready, I can shower without help. All of this makes me happy indeed.

Back to my bedroom, I struggle into underpants, a pair of sweatpants with the legs cut off just above the knees, a baggy tee shirt and a zip-up-the-front sweat top. Dressing requires focus and energy but I can do it.

Lloyd and I move into the study where I occupy one office chair and she occupies another. Realizing that I want to prop my leg, I struggle back to my feet and fetch a towel as Lloyd ignores me. Flip the empty trashcan upside-down, fold the towel on it and—with a sigh—rest my ankle.

Walk Lloyd through both plans, which she outlines and sets aside. After I answer a couple of pointed questions from her regarding schedule and budget, we begin outlining the exec communications plan in detail. Answer her questions as she writes.

We work steadily for more than two hours as Lloyd guzzles coffee like I drink water. We take a pee break before eleven and just sit down again when the phone rings.

Push the headphones on my head and connect. "Yeah."

"Jill, Tom. I'm here with Sam and Charlie, shooting nickelodeon guts. I've seen the operational nickelodeon in the restaurant entryway. I want to move that one away from the wall and crawl inside tomorrow so you'll have some before and after shots. Can you arrange that?"

"How long will it take?"

"Two hours, tops."

"I'll call you back. Have you seen other stuff to shoot out there?"

"Tons. This is Americana gathering dust in a warehouse. History and antique buffs will love these photos when you get them published. Haul your ass out here and check it out."

"Maybe later, Tom. I'll call back." Disconnect and call Kelly.

"Hey Jill," she says.

"Kelly, tomorrow morning Sam and Charlie are going to move the nickelodeon away from the wall for the photographer. They'll finish in two hours, tops. Who authorizes that?"

"Probably Kerry," says Kelly. "Hang on and I'll put you through, Jill."

Soji appears in the doorway, watching me.

Explain what I need to Kerry. He agrees without hesitation, suggesting nine to eleven and offers to have Kelly notify everyone. Thank him and I'm about to disconnect when he asks, "Jill, you live out at Baron Ranch, right?"

"Yes."

"I called the Los Angeles office and got a recording. Left my name and got some literature through the mail, but I have yet to talk with a human being. Carlos says he got in after a two-year wait. How did you get in there?"

It helps to be the money behind the money behind the developer, Kerry. "I put my name in with the sales office two years ago," I tell him.

"Some sales office," he says. "They work by appointment only and mine's six months away. Do you know why they're taking so long to develop it?"

"I know that the crews building these homes are European craftsmen. The landscaping crews are from Japan."

"Why do you think I've been trying to get in there? More money doesn't make a difference. I already found that out. Do you know who the money is behind that development, Jill?"

"I've never asked," I tell him. "I did everything sight unseen through the mail and over the phone from Salt Lake City, Kerry. Took over a year, but when I arrived in mid-September, I picked up the key at security and walked in."

"Who handled financing, escrow and so on?"

"Paid cash," I say.

"Jesus, that must be nice."

"Inheritance," I say, which is only a partial lie, "My grandparents left me land. Sold it and bought this place."

"How big is your lot?"

"I just own the house. Pay a monthly fee for maintenance of the grounds and facilities, but I don't own the land."

"Is it nice?"

"Nicest house I've ever seen."

"I'd like to see it."

"Come on out. I'll leave a message with security that you're coming."

Soji holds up one finger, raising his eyebrows.

"Now? Are you serious? May I bring my wife?"

"Sure." Hold up two fingers to Soji and Lloyd.

"How about Max and his wife? He has his name in too."

Lift two more fingers. "Great. You want lunch?"

Soji's eyes get big.

"Oh no. We don't want to be any trouble."

"No trouble. I have friends staying with me to help. They'll have lunch ready when you get here."

"This is very generous of you, Jill."

"See you soon," I tell him and disconnect.

"Four for lunch?" asks Soji, still standing in the doorway.

"Kerry and Max are executives at Doc's Place, Soji. Bringing their wives."

"China with cloth napkins from Carter's?"

"Yup. Thanks, Soji."

"What's Carter's?" asks Lloyd as Soji leaves.

"Upscale restaurant and catering business a few blocks from here," I reply. "They have a little sign in the catering shop: `Enjoy our food and service but please don't ask us to hurry.'"

"Sounds like they'll make an exception for you, Jill," says Lloyd.

"Millie Carter's a friend," I say. Millie Carter and her husband are buying out my share of their business.

Call the Galeti warehouse and tell Sam that Kerry approved the shoot for tomorrow. He informs me that I've pissed off Paul somehow but he's not getting in the middle of that. Disconnect and set the headphones aside.

Lloyd watches me work my way to my feet and then slowly toward my bedroom. "I'll tell Soji to wake you when security calls," she says.

"Thanks," I tell her. Beside my bed, I pull off my clothes and ease my way under the covers. One second later, Lloyd is holding my foot. Open my eyes and look at her.

"Sorry to wake you, Jill," she says. "Security is bringing them up now. We put the tabletop and linen on a plywood sheet on the pool table. The food is all set out."

"Thanks, Lloyd." Must have fallen asleep immediately but I feel refreshed now. Work my way to my feet, grab undies from a dresser drawer and then move toward the bathroom as Lloyd watches me. Pausing, I say, "Thought you were going to have Soji wake me."

"Soji told me to wake you," says Lloyd.

"Okay," I say with a shrug but no wince, which requires an act of will.

When I come out, Lloyd stands from straightening out the bed as she says, "I understand the bandages are for the bullet wounds, Jill, but where did all those scars, bruises and welts come from? And you eat like a damn horse, yet I can see every muscle and sinew under your skin. Why are you so thin?"

Move into the closet, pull on a sleeveless shift and give my hair a shake. "The scars are from old injuries and the bruises are from my workouts at the dojo, but thin? Who knows?" Slip an arm around her waist. "Speaking of eating, let's go, Lloyd. I'm starving."

Soji admits them at the front door and they introduce themselves. Max is a big, athletic, friendly guy with a beard and dark, curly hair. His wife is a beautiful, slim blonde. Kerry is tall, thin and wears big, sliver-frame glasses. Kerry's wife is serious and quiet like he is.

After introducing them to Lloyd and Soji, then shaking their hands with my left, I guide them into the grand room, where they gawk and exclaim at the size of the rooms, built-in cabinetry and windows. The women say they love the sunroom with its variety of plants, informal dining area and hot tub. They ask me about the plants but all I can say is that the groundskeepers tend them. The kitchen takes some time because of the beauty of the woodwork. The wood, glass and marble work of the spacious tubs and showers in the bathrooms receive careful inspection.

The women adore the huge closets and storage spaces, the grand scale of the rooms and windows, fireplaces in the bedrooms and the double doors. Kerry and Max love the big, warm garage with its tile floor, finished walls and cabinetry. They ogle the '53 Chevy step side pickup and the '63 T-bird convertible but ignore the Buick. I show them the shop in back for dirty work. There I keep the solvent tanks, compressor, welding rigs and so on for stripping down engines and parts from junkyards.

"Who works out here?" asks Kerry's wife.

"I do."

"Now I see why you haven't decorated," says Max's wife. Can't remember her name. "The only rooms that are really lived in are this shop, your garage and your study."

"True, and the sunroom," I say, unsure if she wants a comment from me.

"What's back there?" asks Kerry, pointing at two double doors, one at each end of the shop's rear wall.

"Storage. Go ahead. Parts on the right and toys on the left."

"Okay," says Max once he turns on the light and steps inside the parts storage room. "I knew some house mass was unaccounted for. Jesus, look at the engines and transmissions on these cherry pickers, Kerry. They look perfectly restored."

"One for the Chevy and one for the T-bird," I tell him.

"You don't have a spare engine or two for the dark blue car?" asks Kerry's wife, raising her eyebrows at Max's wife. They exchange a smile. Okay, I get it, ladies. You're laughing at me.

"Nope. Got a spare dark blue car."

She rolls her eyes and looks away.

"Is this 390 stock?" asks Kerry, inspecting the Ford V-8.

"Yup. The Holley four-barrel is stock on the Sports Roadster. See the M engine code?" When Kerry peers closely and nods, I add, "Ford increased the compression ratio from 9.6:1 to 10.8:1 with dual exhaust on the Z-code and M-code engines."

"Why are some of these wheels and things so clean and others so dirty?" asks one of the wives, looking at an axle on a stand.

"I comb junkyards for parts, then clean and repair `em when I get a chance."

Max looks at the ceiling and whispers, "Ah, I see. You have a traveling block and tackle rigged up on suspended rails."

"Right. That's it hanging over the tranny in the corner. Put it in a couple weekends ago with a buddy. Makes working on heavy stuff easy."

"A buddy from a junkyard?" asks Max's wife.

"Mm-hmm."

We move back out to the shop and to the other double doors. Kerry flicks on the light, and whispers, "Holy shit."

"You use all this stuff, Jill?" asks Max.

"From time to time, yes. I haven't climbed rock for a couple years but I still run the rivers, ski and so on."

"My god, Price," says Max, "you're a total freakin' jock!"

"For heaven's sake, Max," says his wife. "At least you don't have hunting rifles, Jill."

"Afraid I do, ma'am. Locked up in that safe you saw in my bedroom closet."

"I'm surprised you don't have trophy heads on the wall," says Max' wife.

Picture the heads of Alon Guccione and his crew hanging on the wall and decide that Bruno the detective and Tony the federal agent would probably disapprove. "Not my thing," is all I say in reply to her comment.

"Excuse me," says Lloyd, appearing in the doorway. "Lunch is ready if you'd like to come inside, everyone."

Kerry and Max fall in either side of me as we follow their wives through the shop and garage toward the living room. "How's the recovery going, Jill?" asks Kerry.

"Pretty well, considering I caught two rounds four days ago. I'm not used to this invalid shit. Be glad when I can run again."

"Are you doing therapy?" asks Max.

"Yeah, Soji helps me there. Has me pushin' the envelope already. It's true about loving and hating your physical therapist."

"Sounds like you're staying on schedule with your plans at Doc's," says Kerry.

"Thanks to help from a lot of people. And thanks again, Kerry for helping to arrange the nickelodeon shoot tomorrow."

"Glad to help," says Kerry. "You should know that you really pissed off Paul and Phil by going to Peter over Sam's time, Jill."

"Wish I had more mobility and time to do this face to face but I can't right now. Well, they'll get over it or they won't, right?"

"And what did you do to Dick Scope, Jill?" asks Max, chuckling. "Jesus, he hates your guts."

"Told him to approve the budgets on my plans or I'd kick his ass."

Both men laugh. "I believe it," says Kerry. "He hates you but he's scared of you."

"Shit, you scare me, Price," says Max.

Our guests exclaim over the beautiful lunch setting and then rave at how delicious everything is. They want to know about Soji and Lloyd. Soji tells them he's an old friend and Lloyd tells them we served on the same military base in Japan together over ten years ago. We spend the rest of the time talking about Baron Ranch.

"They keep the houses all single-story so you don't see your neighbor's houses except from the street," I tell them. "Must be pretty strict covenants, codes and restrictions," says Max's wife. I still can't remember either wife's name.

"Absolutely. Guests park at the entrance and ride in on the electric carts so no visible cars are on the streets. The landscaping hides the houses from one another. The craftsmen do all the landscaping, renovation work and so on."

"I like that," says Max. "No junky cars or junky yards with half-finished projects lying around for weeks and months."

"So who designed your house and its interior, Jill?" asks Kerry's wife.

"I met with an architect and some craftsmen over the phone one morning. It took a couple hours to get everything the way I wanted it. It was good to finally see it after they sent me the final plans because the drawings looked just as I had imagined."

"Didn't somebody try to sue Baron Ranch for something?" asks Max's wife.

"Yeah, a local lawyer with a Spanish surname sued for faster entrance, claiming racial discrimination. The suit died on discovery. It came out that one black couple and two Hispanic families already live here."

"One of them is Carlos Esteban, Security Manager at Doc's," says Kerry. "I found out you live here because he told me."

"Good guy, Carlos."

"You stomped all over him at racquetball," says Max.

"Wasn't fair. I'm sponsored and I've toured."

"Uh-oh," says Max, looking at Kerry. "She's semi-pro. Watch out, Kerry." He turns to me. "Kerry won the state invitational championships two years running down in Las Vegas. He's looking forward to getting his butt kicked by you."

"Maybe in a couple months, Kerry," I tell him with a grin. "Meanwhile, we can sit back and let the suckers take odds."

He and Max laugh heartily at that one but the wives stand up, saying it's time to go. Work my way to the door to see them off. Once they're gone, Lloyd tells me that at least I hit it off with the guys.

"I think the only reason they were friendly was to see the house," I tell her. "I like both those guys but I don't trust `em."

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Doc's Place Chat
© 2008, Michel Grover.
Chapter 13 | Part 1
Winter Early 2009

Lucia :
Mic has posted in the left frame paragraphs from Doc's Place, one of his copyrighted stories. I'm moderating chat here in the right frame. I post every day, but I don't post everything. I have formed a secondary group from which I may also post comments.

Carlo :
I like the interrogation Raj put you through, Jill. Do you mind if I ask a few questions as he did?

Jill :
Raj had a point to his interrogation, Carlo. What's yours?

Carlo :
I'm trying to understand you. It's difficult to explain to my friends and acquaintances how an admitted sociopath chooses to think and act.

Jill :

Why do you feel it's necessary to explain my behavior to them—or anyone for that matter?

Carlo :
As a result of my membership in the primary group, the people I know have bestowed upon me a minor celebrity status. These people consider me a sort of expert on you, Jill. People often call on me to explain your behavior.

Jill :
They have access to the same material you do. Let them figure out my behavior.

Carlo :
They don't have access to you as I do, which makes all the difference to them. I'm probably not the only one in the primary group who has this experience. Does anyone else have friends and acquaintances who ask you to explain Jill's behavior?

Jules :
Ever since I've joined the primary group, I buy fewer drinks. And I get a lot of . . . action too.

Ian :

Same here, Jill. I get a lot more action now that I'm in the primary group. People, especially women—some of them downright weird, are fascinated with you.

Alan :
Works the same way in the gay and lesbian community around downtown Portland, Ian. I have them lining up at my usual haunts, where, like Carlo, I've become a minor celebrity.

Ian :
Are some of them weird, Alan?

Alan :
Well, they look normal but they're crazy in the sack.

Ian :
I'll meet a woman who looks absolutely, dead-on normal, but the moment she realizes who I am and gets me alone, she becomes a freak.

Annie :
On a more serious note, my membership in the primary group has brought our consulting business significantly more revenue. As a result, the owners have promoted me to senior partner.

Lucia :
A campus group has formed around discussing this Web site because a couple composition classes offer extra credit for participation. The group meets twice a week. Whenever the discussion stalls on a certain point, I get an invitation so I can clear things up for them.

Carlo :
Anyway, Jill, I'm just trying to clarify a few issues.

Jill :
State them.

Carlo :

Why do you react as you do? What can make you angry or make you laugh? I think that I'm getting to know you well enough to predict your reactions with some accuracy but I'm not always right and I'd like to know why by getting to know you better.

For example in the current story segment, you wake up feeling good but you grow angry. It's not the pain but you don't say why you become angry.

Another example is that you discover Kerry and Max want to see your house so you generously invite them and their wives over for lunch and a tour even though you don't trust them and you know they don't like you.

No way could I have predicted your reactions. I'd like to get better at it but I don't know how.

Jill :
Why do you think I become angry in the current story segment Carlo?

Carlo :
You're tired of depending upon others for simple tasks like going to the bathroom and getting dressed.

Jill :
How do you know?

Carlo :
Well, you're happy when you wake up after your nap to find the crutches and the aluminum frames in the bathroom. Later, you don't mind a bit when Lloyd ignores you as you prop up your leg. Is that correct?

Jill :
Yes

Carlo :
Okay, so why did you invite Kerry and company over when you know they don't like you?

Jill :
What do you suspect is my reason?

Annie :
I can answer that one. From Sonshi, Sun-tzu says, "One who knows the enemy and knows himself will not be in danger in a hundred battles." Therefore, know your enemy.

Carlo :
Ah, that makes sense.

Benny :
Of course it does. Doesn't it also seem normal?

Carlo :
It does seem normal for a calculating person. However, if the average person did not trust two male executives and their wives and suspected that they did not like her, she would not invite them over for lunch and a tour of her house.

Benny :
She might if she knew a confrontation was brewing and if she might learn something that would prepare her for the coming conflict.

Carlo :
You're right, it does make sense in that situation. Okay, I'll concede that Jill getting to know her enemy is normal.

Benny :

By the way, Carlo, Jill just put you through the same paces that she put Amalie and me through, and for the same reason—so you could learn about her by trusting your intuition.

Carlo :

You said earlier, during the DP12:6 chat, Benny, that your intuition informs you, as do your experience and cognition. Are you saying now that I can learn about Jill by trusting all three—my experience, cognition and intuition?

Benny :
Yes, but I'm only telling you that because Jill just taught all of us that we should trust all three. It may take considerable effort and trust in your instincts, but if you make that effort, you'll understand her better than if she just answers our questions as she did for Raj.

Doug :
Why was Jill willing to answer Rajneesh's questions but not ours?

Amalie :

It's because we're ready to figure out Jill's motives on our own, Doug. We know a little—cognition, we've had limited interaction with her—experience and so we should learn to trust what we sense but don't realize—intuition. Now, Benny told you that it would take effort and trust in your gut, but I think we're ready.

Doug :

You and Benny may feel ready, Amalie, but what if some of us—me, for instance—do not?

Amalie :

We'll help each other. Besides, I don't think we have a choice. In the future, Jill wants us to start figuring out her motives on our own—at least more than we have done so far, anyway.

Doug :
Why weren't we ready before? What's changed? Why are we ready now?

Alan :
Is it because we're more cohesive now?

Marcus :
Group cohesiveness can just as often be a negative as a positive. If anything, we should be more critical of Jill, her methods and the story in the left frame. We should also be more critical of one another, so no, I don't think our cohesiveness, such as it is, is the reason we're ready.

Alan :
Are we progressing too slowly . . . or too quickly?

Annie :
Both Lizzie and Jill have said that Pere executives intend to wait as things develop. If our rate of development is an issue, it's a minor one.

Minnie :
We can guess at the reasons for the change or just go ahead and do it. It's time we begin figuring things out for ourselves as the norm. On rare occasions, we'll ask Jill to explain her motives. To put it another way, this isn't Jill's doing. This is our call.

Cyril :

Minnie's right. Let's proceed and correct as we go. The risk is that we won't get some of Jill's motivations exactly right but in time, we will.

Of course, this group decision assumes that we're all sufficiently fascinated with the subject matter to proceed. Is there anyone among us who is not interested? How about you, Doug?

Doug :
It's interesting that you would choose to ask me that question, Cyril. Do you mind telling me why you ask?

Cyril :
I know little if anything at all about you, of course, but I've always assumed that you're something of a loner, Doug. This could be due in part to your father's influence, but I suspect that you take your own road largely by choice. With that background, I wonder why you're so timid about figuring out Jill's motives without her help.

Doug :
I'll so stipulate. In the spirit of trusting our instincts, how do you think I'll answer your question?

Cyril :
You're fascinated with the subject matter and, for the first time in your life, you're enjoying the group dynamic. Perhaps your enjoyment springs from participating in a virtual forum as we have here, or perhaps it comes from the group's insularity. You don't really know or care where your enjoyment emanates, but you are passionate about what we do here. However, your parents are always there to back you in case of dire emergency so you're not particularly confident about taking risks.

Doug :
Right again, Cyril. While I have the spotlight, does anyone else have a comment about loner Doug and his timidity in uncertain situations that require risk?

Lucia :

You don't see yourself as a loner at all, Doug, even though you behave that way in the world. You see yourself as quite social without the will—until you join a virtual group, that is. Are you an on-line gamer or part of some other virtual groups?

Doug :
You are an astute observer, Lucia. I'm a past grand master and mage within several on-line gaming groups. Recently though, I sold the last of my on-line holdings, dropped my memberships and dumped my hardware on eBay. The only computer I kept is a notebook so I can keep up with this group, pay my bills and check my investments once in a while. Right now, I'm sitting in a bar, watching the ball game and chatting with you people.

Jules :
Thought you Mormons didn't drink alcohol.

Doug :
I'm what people in Utah and surrounding areas call a jack mormon, which means I'm a member and friendly with other members but I don't obey the rules or attend services.

In my youth, my parents pressured me to attend services and participate in church activities, which is one reason I socialize selectively now. When I left home for college, I quit attending services within a semester so my parents cut me off financially. I developed and sold on-line gaming characters and worked in software quality assurance to support myself while I attended school.

Lucia :
Weren't your parents paying for your education as well as supporting you?

Doug :
No, I had a full ride in software engineering at UCLA but I still had living expenses, which aren't cheap in Los Angeles. Now I do contract development 10-20hrs a week to pay bills but mostly, I loaf. I own my own place, my own car and have no debts so I do okay, I guess.

Marcus :
Not to be too critical, Doug, but it doesn't sound as if you have any goals in life. Perhaps that is because having goals means taking risks to achieve them.

Doug :
That's for damn sure. Guess you could say I'm starting chapter 3, but I don't have goals for this new chapter of my life, let alone my goals for my life as a whole. About the time that this group, with its connection to my dad came along, I was wondering, "Is this all there is?"

Maria :
Do you have a girlfriend, Doug?

Doug :
I have what I call a bullpen, Maria. When I need a woman for a social event or booty call, I call one of them and we do our thing. Plenty of sex and all, but I'm not interested in a relationship with one woman. Hell, I'm bored as it is without settling with only one person.

What seems contradictory to me is that I have plenty of energy. I sleep 5-6hrs a night, get up early and work for a while, and then read or go surfing. Mid-mornings, I hit the gym for a couple hours, eat a late lunch and maybe meet someone for business or whatever and then I go somewhere and hang out for the evening. I usually meet a woman and go home with her, but I'm on my way home within a couple hours.

Annie :
What do you read, Doug?

Doug :

I'm always reading a book or two—usually history or other non-fiction, Annie. Mostly I read newspapers, news and financial analysis magazines and sports—lots of sports. When I say I hang out, it's usually at a sports bar or sporting event to watch a game. I love autumn because there's so much going on with baseball playoffs, football and then basketball and hockey are just starting.

Jules :
You sound like a media market sample, Doug. You're in your 20s, single, discretionary income and time. You also consume media and other products on a daily basis.

Minnie :
Do you want children?

Doug :
Who, me, have kids? Are you kidding? I barely manage the few responsibilities that I do have, let alone take care of a kid or two for 20+ years.

Annie :
Don't some of the women you meet have a child or children?

Doug :
If a woman I meet turns out to be a single mother and I find out, I don't walk, I run. Hell, I run if she wants any commitment whatsoever.

Amalie :
What if you meet someone special?

Doug :

Meeting someone special is a myth in this era, Amalie. Hollywood and other media marketing machines spew out that bullshit for the consumption of girls your age or lonely women my age and older. I live in LA where I hang out in West Hollywood and other scenes about town. I've been meeting gorgeous, independent and intelligent women practically every night for six years. They take me home, we have sex and I'm gone. Seldom do I ever call a woman after that—only if I need her for the bullpen or a late-night booty call when I don't score.

Annie :
Your life sounds pretty jaded and superficial, if you don't mind my saying, Doug. It's no wonder you're bored. Don't you have any women friends?

Doug :

It may sound that way, Annie, but it's not. I have male friends that I attend sporting events and the occasional concert with, but I don't hang out with women in that way, no. Wait, I take that back because I have lesbian friends but they usually end up with a different crowd later in the evening.

In case you're thinking that I'm the exception rather than the rule, remember what Jules said about my being like a media market sample. Thousands of people like me are in every city in the world, with few exceptions. Most young, single women and men today are married to their careers and have no desire to start a family. The exceptions are either nut jobs or parasites—either women or men—who want someone to support them.

Those looking for marriage don't hang out where I do. Most married couples that I meet say they envy people like me, not the other way around. Besides, with the life expectancies today, when and if people do decide they'd like to settle down with one person, marry and start a family, they can wait until their late 30s or early 40s. When their kids grow up, those parents will live another 20yrs. I know there are exceptions but generally, they will live to enjoy their grandchildren. As Minnie said when she joined the primary group, what's the point?

Steph :
You said that the exceptions are nut jobs or parasites, Doug. You described the latter. How would you characterize the nut jobs?

Doug :
Hey Stephanie, I wondered if you would jump in on this subject. In my world, nut jobs are controlling or co-dependent assholes who constantly need someone to justify their existence. They're like vampires because they feed off one or several others.

Now that I've answered your question, I have one for you. Guess what my question is.

Steph :
Yes, I confess that I'm on Doug's list of late-night booty calls. Moreover, yes, I'm married but my husband is quite a bit older and can't . . . keep up some nights, so I leave a message on Doug's cell phone and sometimes he calls me back. I dash over until the not-so-wee hours and then dash home so I'm there for my family when they wake up. Now, what's your question, Doug?

Doug :
Do you wish you were single like me?

Steph :
Absolutely not. I love my husband and children and I love my life.

Ian :
Bloody hell, Stephanie, you're one of the most beautiful women I've ever seen. Doug's a lucky guy.

Steph :
And I'm a lucky woman, Ian. Doug has a wonderful personality.

Minnie :
Uh-huh, I'll bet he does, Stephanie, you slut.

Amalie :
Well, we're interested. Tell us about his personality, Stephanie.

Steph :
Ask Ume or Lizzie off-line, girl. I'm sure they'll explain.

Lucia :
You haven't answered Cyril's question, Doug. Did you forget?

Doug :

No, Cyril asked if I'm interested in our group discussions and implied that he'd like to know what I find interesting about them. I am interested—at times even fascinated—with the group's discussion, but what gets my motor running, as Maria said, is what we reveal and learn about each other. Personally, I check in several times a day so I can find out who's confessing what today. Now, here I am, and the confessor is me.

Steph :
Do you ever try to discuss this stuff with your father?

Doug :
Definitely, but he just questions my lack of moral fiber and standards.

Maria :
You said earlier that your parents cut you off financially when you quit attending services. How is your relationship with them now?

Doug :
It's superficial. Dad's what they call a general authority now, so he's busy traveling all the time and Mom's always volunteering for something to keep busy.

Maria :
They're probably disappointed that you haven't given them grandchildren yet.

Doug :
No doubt it's that and the fact that I'm not doing anything with my life. As far as they're concerned, I've strayed pretty far from the ideal. What pisses off Dad the most is that he can't brag about me to his Church pals.

Lucia :
So, to review Chapter 3 of the Book of Doug, you've quit on-line gaming, closed your subscriptions, sold almost all your hardware and become involved with this group. Other than that, nothing has changed. You still do a different woman almost every night and if you don't, you call Stephanie or one of the other women in the bullpen. You keep to the schedule and activities you've had for the last six years. Are you doing anything else to secure your future?

Doug :
Following Jill's example, I have started to buy, renovate and sell managed commercial property near coastal cities and invest long term in commercial and recreational property around the Intermountain West. Unless something drastic happens, the income from leasing those properties will be my retirement.

Lucia :
That's a significant change. Marcus, are you satisfied that this young man is writing a new chapter in the book of Doug?

Marcus :
You're securing your financial future, Doug. You don't appear to have bad habits like drugs or gambling, but you don't seem interested in much of anything.

Doug :
You're right, Marcus. Besides participating in this group, all I'm interested in is hanging out with casual acquaintances, watching sports and having sex.

Steph :
Are you happy, Doug?

Doug :
Yes, I am, Stephanie and thank you for asking. Call me superficial but I'm happy.

Steph :
At this point, I don't know what else we can say.

Lucia :
We can ask why Doug isn't ready to figure out Jill's motivations without her help.

Doug :
I like knowing we can go to the oracle if we can't figure out something. That's all.

Lucia :
What if you can't?

Doug :
Why then does Jill participate, if not to answer questions we can't?

Lucia :
We're about to find out, Doug.